The season is upon me.

The season of deep reflection and wet, burning eyes. The season of remembrance and while not as intense as it once was, a season of grief and loneliness.

When August begins, so do thoughts about the upcoming anniversary of my husband’s collapse and death five days later. On the heels of that week in September, his birthday month of October approaches. We celebrate Matthew for the man, the father, the husband, the son and the brother he was.

Of course, the holiday season follows October, bringing with it all the events we now celebrate without him. Until January rolls around, life just seems out of kilter.

Faith in action

It is during this season I must decide whether my faith is real or not. It is a true test of my faith.

In my head, I know that since Adam’s entrance on earth, God has never failed anyone who places their trust in Him. In my heart, I know He loves and cares for me more than any human ever has or ever will.

The book of Hebrews reminds me that faith is believing and acting on something I cannot see. It describes stories of how people responded to God in faith. These stories encourage us to have faith in our situations too.

They remind me that my story and my future are not based on what I can see, but what I cannot see. And that is God.

Faith depends on Jesus

Faith fully depends on Christ.

As A. W. Tozer shares in his devotional book Mornings with Tozer, “How many professing Christians boast in the Lord but watch carefully that they never get caught fully depending on Him?”

I don’t want to live my life with a “way out” in case Jesus fails. I want to depend fully on the One who gave His life for me.

I pray all of us will “get caught” fully depending on Jesus.

Dare to live for Jesus. Fully depend on Him in your tears, with your memories, with your loneliness and grief, and as you celebrate life’s moments.

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. (Hebrews 11:1 NIV)